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check it, i use this.

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 07:15:51 GMT

hehe i have a crush.

how very silly.

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 00:01:00 GMT

Emily got a message from her friend Drew, saying he missed her.
I think I miss Drew more than she does.
I asked her why she wasn't interested in hanging out with him again.
"You overestimate the goodness in people Megan"

maybe.

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 19:10:30 GMT

I like this summer.
Mostly.
Kinda.

I like
that things are getting cleared up between us
when we talk on the phone really late about problems and movies and memories
when i go to concerts and have chills the whole night
how i can be content sitting outside playing stupid games
all of the sleepovers i'm having
my countless freckles and semi-tan

I don't like
that you're so very far away
how sad i make you and how crazy you're driving me
that i waste my day sleeping because i stay awake all night
the way i'm inside right now
not seeing as many people as i want
how lazy i've gotten.. i miss yoga

show me that people still use livejournal.

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 06:51:28 GMT

post anything you want to, tell me anything, say anything you want, anonymous, post as much as you want.
ask me anything you'd like and i'll try my best to answer.
please keep it completely honest.

If B1 is the only one to comment, I'll be a little sad.

Well.

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 20:59:19 GMT

I guess this works too.

Either way I wish you'd tell me.

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 04:38:08 GMT

You weren't lying at all when you said you were confusing.
You're mean to me. I don't deserve it, but I want to be your friend again
so, so badly.
It was this way last year and there were other reasons for it.
I think those reasons are gone now, so you just hate me?

It hurts my feelings.. I miss the friend I used to have.

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 04:36:28 GMT

all i want to say is that i fucking told you so.

Sat, 24 May 2008 22:24:51 GMT

One minute she's awesome, the next she's a mess.
She tries to convince you to break up with her because she's not stable enough.
You tell me she makes you happy, but that she's kind of like two different people.

I'm getting bitter that he won't make time to even be my friend anymore.
He was worried I'd cut him out of my life and it's happening the other way around.

i think i might be broken.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 03:19:26 GMT

there were probably only 3 of my friends that i didn't see this weekend and i still feel really lonely.
and maybe i'm imagining it, but i feel like i'm singlehandedly ruining each of my friendships in one way or another.
No matter how sad I am about this, I haven't been able to really cry in over a month.

would someone be willing to just like, punch me in the stomach really, really hard?

where is everybody?

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 22:19:53 GMT

i want to know how things worked out and the internet is giving me no clues.

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 02:30:00 GMT

I love love love love fall.
Commence the pumpkin works trip planning now (preferably after the 19th ;}).

I'm excited about things coming soon. I have big ideas for the 12th. I just hope my lack of money doesn't get in the way.

I'm in love with this.

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 14:49:45 GMT

If you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine

but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by

if you be my boat
I'll be your sea
a depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free

but you can set sail to the west if you want to
and past the horizon till I can't even see you
far from here where the beaches are wide
just leave me your wake to remember you by

if you be my star
I'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when I turn jet black and you show off your light
I live to let you shine
I live to let you shine

but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by
stardust to remember you by

I want to know more about everybody

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 23:49:09 GMT

Tell me something, anything.
I want to learn.

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 01:00:16 GMT

Have I mentioned I really kind of hate school this year?
I want it to be over. Being a senior is really no big deal.. at least not to me.
I miss summer.

I'm a happy kid.. for the most part

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 21:04:22 GMT

Friday night I felt alive and young and in love.
I hugged everyone I saw multiple times and I laughed and I played in the rain.
It was all so wonderful.
I didn't go to the North/South game and I don't even care.

I worked too early Saturday morning and spent the rest of the day fighting for approval from someone.
Maybe it isn't worth it because it won't turn into anything more, but I'm so, so hopeful.
I'm just really tired of working so hard.
Just like me, please. Don't think I'm going to do something stupid or be a bad influence.
I'm smarter than that. I'm better than that.

Sunday I got to do yoga for the first time in a while and it felt really great.
I spent time with friends and enjoyed the weather.
I wish I could've been in a better mood.
I paid for my rain dance with a sore throat and stuffy nose.

I've learned how some people are really there for you without you realizing it.
And I'm incredibly loved by my best friend and I've decided to be as idealistic about it as I want.

Some people just feel like home

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 14:25:59 GMT

I lost count of the apologies and the "I missed you"s.
It feels good to have my best friend back, my favorite part of the summer.

Sat, 19 May 2007 19:30:40 GMT

In 8 days I'll be 17. There's no doubt I'll have fun, but I'll probably cry.
Last year was perfect. I don't want to let memories get in the way, but I know they will.

And tonight is the prom that I wanted to go to. I still want to go. I hate admitting how hurt I am that you decided to go. I really shouldn't be.

My teeth hurt. It's weird that I'm barely paying attention to that.
My head hurts and my heart hurts and my stomach hurts.

always hold me close to your heart

Fri, 18 May 2007 03:04:30 GMT

post anything you want to, tell me anything, say anything you want, anonymous, post as much as you want.
ask me anything you'd like and i'll try my best to answer.
please keep it completely honest.

I get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow. Only two of them, but still. I'm terrified.
Why do I keep growing up? I'm terrified about that, too.

you make me merry, make me very very happy

Mon, 14 May 2007 01:34:20 GMT

This weekend I drove:
to work on Thursday,
the mall on Friday,
to David's house Friday night,
to work on Saturday,
to David's house Saturday night,
and to yoga on Sunday.

I loooooove it!

Saturday night on the way back from David's, I was thinking a lot. I spent the night having fun and I really didn't think much that most of my friends were at prom. But on the way home, I realized it. I drove by South and saw all of the cars there and thought of everyone dressed up and how much fun everyone was having.

And I was really sad.

The whole year I didn't want to go to prom very much, but I figured I would end up going. And I know I still could've gone with someone else. Or by myself. But the realization that I didn't have the person I would've wanted to go with hit me hard.

It seems so unfair that friends of mine can have the same thing happen and be so much more okay with it so much sooner. And that only a couple days later, they're laughing again and they're happy. Can't I have that?

Sun, 06 May 2007 21:10:21 GMT

Oh and to add to my latest entry:
goddamn, i'm whiny.

Sun, 06 May 2007 21:07:42 GMT

I'm such an idiot for thinking I was okay.
It doesn't seem fair that you have so much control over my emotions without trying.
I spent half of the ride home crying and then the other half laughing hysterically and being slap-happy.
I wish I knew why I'm like this sometimes.

On the good side of things, I can drive now! And Emily is going to Australia for 2 weeks and said I could drive her car when she's gone if my mom doesn't care! yay!

They've all made me so unhappy that I don't want to go on anymore without you..

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 20:32:05 GMT

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Thu, 19 Apr 2007 20:48:31 GMT

I really don't feel like I have anything to look forward to anymore.
Maybe yoga. But that's only on Sundays. And every Sunday after yoga, I'll have free time and think about another main reason I stopped working on Sundays.

Maybe a lot of people are right. I just don't want to get my hopes up.

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 01:02:46 GMT

I woke up crying this morning, curled in a little ball.
I had a dream last night and I was working as the person controlling a water slide.
A girl died on the slide and I don't know her, but in my dream I did and it was sad.
And later, I had a fight with a bunch of people that were my best friends, but I really don't know any of them at all.
And the fight was messy and we all ended up laughing a lot after it was over.
And I talked to my cousin Joey and introduced myself. And even though he's famous, he knew who I was because in my dream I did look enough like my cousin Kristi just like my mom says I do, even though I really don't.
And we talked about the movies he was in.
Then I dreamt that I was at my old house. And you were there. And I tried again and this time, you didn't tell me not to and it didn't make me sad and my heart didn't hurt so much.
And we spent the rest of the time together and being happy again.
None of the rest of the dream made sense but that last part did.
I think that's why I woke up like I did.
Dreams like that make me want to sleep.
But then I never want to wake up.
You were the only part of my dream that made sense. I think that fits.

So it goes.

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 10:09:55 GMT

RIP Kurt Vonnegut.
11/11/22-4/11/07